Chapter 19

I could admit that yesterday was the best day ever. The day which we spent twice kisses a day, the day which we reconciliation occurred, the day which we fell for each other all over again. I couldn’t say that I did not miss the moment. Just then something just popped up my mind that I couldn’t wait to see Jasper.

I wore one of the dresses that I brought from Forks and went out. It was nice to see myself wearing a dress, I just look exactly alike with my mom, young, and energetic. ‘Mom, I miss you.’

“Raven? You look pretty.” Aunt Allie smiled.

“Thank you Aunt Allie. Good morning Mr. Whine.” I smiled towards Mr. Whine.

“Good morning. Take a seat. Are you leaving today?” Mr. Whine frowned.

“Oh no, Raven. Really? I assume you changed your mind.” Aunt Allie sighed with disappointment.

“Geez. Jasper gonna be emotional.” Both of them continued their conversation without letting me to respond.

“She’s not leaving.” Jasper stood momentously beside the door and smiled.

 “Oh? I told you she wouldn’t be leaving.” Aunt Allie exposed a victory smile.

“I didn’t say she was leaving…” Mr. Whine whispered to himself. Jasper and I were giggled and laughing aside.

“Are we going anywhere today?” I patted on Jasper’s shoulder.

“Ya. A prom” Jasper smiled mischievously.

“Me? Prom?” I frowned. “Of course. I need a beautiful partner for the party.” Jasper laughed.

“What? Jasper, I’m not going to any party.” I said miserably.

“But you did went to some party isn’t it? It wasn’t that bad right?” Jasper said softly.

“Ya, it wasn’t that bad but extremely bad. Can’t you attend yourself?” I said boringly.

“Of course there’s a purpose, to salute for the new semester. I want you to come because I wouldn’t be able to celebrate the last high school year or even graduation together with you, I guess?” He frowned.

“Jas…” I was totally enthralled by his watery eyes.

“Come on Raven. I promised it will be as fun as my farewell party.” He smiled.

“Your farewell party wasn’t fun at all. Counting the time to say ‘goodbye’ to you again? I can barely to do that again.” I swerved my back immediately and looked out from the window.

“I’m sorry. You know I never wanted you to do that.”

“It’s okay. I’ll go. As long as you stay happy, I’ll do whatever you want and we have to precious the time we spent in Arizona right?” I smiled and he nodded with pleasant.

“Are you ready Raven?” Jasper yelled loudly from the stairs. I still couldn’t pick out a dress that suits for myself because Amanda’s savor wasn’t actually what I would have chosen. Just then, Aunt Allie came into my room.

“Can you just wait me for a few more moments? I need some time.” I yelled back to Jasper.

“Aunt Allie?” I turned and saw her standing beside the door.

“Can I help you with anything dear?” She smiled gracefully.

“Actually…” I couldn’t speak up.

“Let me help you.” She walked towards and started to manage my hair which was disarray and knot.

“Thank you.” I smiled. I couldn’t believe that Aunt Allie was actually a great helper with the hair and even the clothes were absolutely conformed to my style. I could not deny that she’s a really stylish young lady.

“Thank you, Aunt Allie. You’re awesome.” I smiled with my surprised emotion.

“You’re welcome. You should be going now. Jasper must be impatient already.” Aunt Allie patted on my back lightly.

“You’ll be the prettiest girl tonight at the prom.” Aunt Allie chuckled and laughed. I walked carefully in case I wouldn’t step on the dress and fall on the ground with shame.

“Jasper? Are you alright?” I shook my hand in front of Jasper because his eyes and his movement had already stiffened… somewhere on me.

“Oh! I’m fine. You look so different. Stunning.” Jasper smiled with obscene.

“Hey!” I shoved him hardly on his chest.

“Sorry.” He laughed. “Beautiful.” He grabbed my hand.

“I thought you guys should be going now?” Aunt Allie came down from the stairs and urged us not to be late.

“Thank you.” I nodded as I smiled.

“Are you sure it will be fine wearing something I’m not really comfortable with?” I frowned.

“Of course. You looked just fine. There’s nothing you should be worry. The only thing you should be worry is that people will be watching at you all the time tonight.” He laughed and made me felt even uncomfortable.

“Why? Don’t make me fear of it.” His intimidation always scared me of.

“Oh, geez. Why should I choose a girlfriend like you? Everyone will be watching and you’ll neglect me somehow.” Jasper grasped his hair intentionally while with his mischievous laughter.

“Can you please stop that?” I shook my head and he laughed even louder.

As we arrived, there were a lot of people surrounded in front of the school. Most of the girls looked so pretty that I might have attracted by their beauty. Besides, the people in this school looked so different compare to the school I’m having. They looked sociable and gregarious. Everyone was talking to each other with a big smile on their face. I couldn’t have seen such scene in my school. I’ll have to admit that.

“What?” Jasper patted my head lightly.

“Nothing.” I smiled.

“Come on, let’s rock the party tonight.” Jasper gestured a rock sign with his fingers and laughed. He grabbed my hand and carefully holding me beside him for not letting me to fall. Although he always made me mad, and he drove me crazy, sometimes, but his concern on me is definitely without deliberation.

“Thank you.” He smiled when I whispered softly.

I can see Jack and some of the other guys whom I had met on the night before Jasper and I had an argument. Everyone was wearing formally which had showed how charming they were with the clothes they wore tonight.

“Hi, Raven. I thought Jasper wasn’t gonna bring you up tonight.” Jack smiled delightfully while he saw I approached towards the crowds.

“Hey.” I smiled.

“Jack…are you up to something again?” Jasper frowned. “Not exactly” Jack laughed and they made a secret handshake with soft laughter.

“Your girl look nice, Jas.” One of the guys from Jack’s gang showed up. Just when Jasper was going to mess things up, Jack stood up and shoved the guy behind.

“It’s alright Jasper. He’s joking.” Jack smiled meanwhile the guy hugged a girl and kissed on her cheek.

“My girl feels better.” The guy laughed loudly and walked away.

“Let’s get in.” Jack pushed the door opened for me and I nodded lightly. Jasper wasn’t leaving me behind by myself, not even a second. He said that he just wanted to be with me tonight, but that’s impossible. He’s quite a popularity guy in the school, there were a lot of people wanted to take photograph with him and in fact, there’s too many pretty girls surrounding him right now.

“Will I have the honor to dance with you, ma’am?” I heard a sound emerged behind me while I was staring at Jasper with my temperament madness about the girls around him.

“Jack?” I frowned. “I don’t dance, sorry.” I grinned and laughed at myself.

“Seriously? I thought you were a great dancer.” He laughed.

“I’m not. May be you should find someone else. There’s a lot pretty ladies here.” I smiled and he shook his head.

“Not really my type. I never invite a girl for a dance. You’re the first one. You can’t stop refusing me, are you?” Jack smiled and looked sorrowful.

“Jack, don’t…okay, fine.” I lifted my hand and landed on his palm as consent towards him. He looked relieved and walked me into the dance floor. He put my hand on his shoulder and one of his hand landed on my waist. It wasn’t that bad dancing with someone else but not only Jasper. I feel like Jasper wasn’t the only one in my life, I need friends too. This made me feel I may have neglected all of my friends because of Jasper. I couldn’t stop thinking about Jasper previously when Jasper left and everyone was just trying to protect me, taking care of me, teasing me to make me happy…

“Are you okay?” Jack knocked on my forehead.

“Oh, great.” I smiled. Dancing with the steps that may have looked like a retarded person.

“Thanks for inviting me for the dance.” I grinned as he frowned.

“Jasper shouldn’t abandon you behind and teasing the girls in front of you.” He looked mad and fierce. I turned my head to find for Jasper, he was still chattering joyfully with the pretty ladies.

“Never mind, Jack. I’m okay with it.” I said disappointedly.

“But I’m not okay with it. Come, you shouldn’t see this kind of scene. He’s way to over.” Jack pulled me out from the dance floor and we left the ballroom.

“Where were we going?” I stared at his back and walking pantingly with the big steps he was making but he wasn’t answering my question at all.

“Jack, you’re hurting me.” His hand held even tighter when I tried to struggle and demanding to release from his palm.

“Jack! Let go off me!” I shouted out loud and he eventually released my hand.

“Why!” He banged his hand on the wall hardly that freaked me out.

“Jack! What are you doing?!” I shouted at him and run towards him to check if his hand wasn’t injured.

“Is your hand alright?” I touched his hand but he dodged me off. My mind went blank and I do not know what should I do or say but yet, to stay silent. In fact, I still yet understand what was happening, he looked fine, may be 30 seconds ago.

       Observing the surrounding of us, we were standing in the hallway, there’s not even a person passing by, not even a freaking sound was to be heard. The hallway was dim and obscure, just like a hallway in the horror movie, or a vampire movie but I wasn’t afraid of it, because I have to ensure Jack wasn’t injured.

“Let me…” I said gently while he squatted on the floor. This time, he didn’t dodge me over but stay in silent.

“It’s lucky. Your hand wasn’t injured. Are you an idiot? Why did you punch the wall so recklessly?” I frowned and he looked at me, into my eyes. Suddenly, I felt my cheek was heating up without any reasons.

“I want you to choose me instead of Jasper.” He said gently but with a sense of anger that I can feel in him.

“I promise I wouldn’t let you feel the same way that Jasper did.”

“You do not know what you’re saying!” I pushed him away and started to leave.

“I know! I’m extremely clear what I’m saying and what I’m doing!” He grabbed my wrist and pulled me towards him.

“You actually fall for a girl that you just knowing her for a few days? That’s totally immature and totally unreasonable.” I’m trying hard to struggle.

“What if I say yes” I stunted at the place without any struggled and stared at him.

“I wasn’t joking. I told you I’m taking it serious since that day we met but when I know that you’re Jasper’s girl... I tried to let go, but… until the moment I saw your eyes staring at Jasper. He just doesn’t appreciate you, can’t you see that? I can’t stand anymore but to let you know, you have the other choice.” He gradually enhanced his volume.

“Jack! That’s enough! You know the one I love is only Jasper... I’m sorry.” I turned my back to him.

“I saw everything that night. The night, which you both started arguing, he made you cried. I saw it. Just when I was going to fed up. When I had decided to give up you because I believe he might give you happiness, but now all I can see is sadness in you. He doesn’t deserve a girl like you, Raven.”

“Enough Jack! I want you to stop, now. I don’t know what you’re talking about. I love him, everybody knew that.” I could hardly continue my words because Jack had straightly pointed into my wound that Jasper had made on me.

“You’re avoiding the problems. It’s not going to help any one of us. I know you love him, but you might love someone else someday. Who knows about the future?” Jack smirked.

“I’m not! I’m not avoiding the problems. Can’t you just forget about what you’re saying and let things get over? This conversation is over.” I walked off with a mad temper but Jack holds my back and pushed me by the wall. 

All I knew in a sudden was that he kissed me.  Jack kissed me, on my lips. I attempted to refuse him, but he’s too strong, stronger than I thought. I couldn’t shove him away from his enforcement, but the more I struggled the closer he approached.

“Could you stop refusing me?” Ultimately, he released his lips on mine and said gently in an extremely close distance but I didn’t respond to his question because I was fear to frank what had happened a few minutes ago.

“Raven, don’t refuse me anymore. Can you? Let me proof that I’m better than him.” He left a few inches distance from me and grinned.

“Even just a few minutes ago. You’re not even kissing me back but I know you will someday. I’ll never do that again, unless you ask to.” Jack smirked again.

“Let me go.” I begged him and I started to run away from the scene which I never wanted to remember again. The speed of my running kept on enhancing until I halted in front of Jasper’s car. There’s no one in the parking lots except for my trace, waiting for my boyfriend to ask me what had happened and thinking that my boyfriend’s friend just kissed me a few minutes ago, insanely.

‘What am I doing? What did Jack just did to me? Should I tell Jasper about the incident and probably he’ll start a fight with Jack or should I stayed calm for not telling him anything about it until find out that I’m lying to him?  What should I do?’

“Where did you go?” I heard Jasper shouting with panting voice and a hand landed on my hand but I was shocked by the scene just now.

“Ray…Ray…are you okay?” Jasper shook me softly.

“Oh? Where did you go?” I hugged him nervously and cried for myself.

“What happened?” He whispered.

“Can we go home now?” I asked with my shocking voice.

“Okay, okay. We’ll go home now.” He rounded on my waist directing me to get in the car. On the way back, Jasper didn’t speak but I knew he did kept his gaze on me within a few seconds passed by. I should know how serious it might be if I told Jasper about the case that just happened and it implicated his friendship and relationship. That wouldn’t be my choice if it might be impact his life because of me. I couldn’t do anything right in the moment. What if I say the wrong words? What will happen if I told him? What will happen if I chose to hide the truth behind him?

Jasper grabbed my hand while he halted the car in front of his house. I know he was worried but I couldn’t tell him anything right now before I calm my mind down to distinguish the right or the wrong. Speaking of word choice, I’m confused.

“You know you could tell me anything.” Jasper said gently and I nodded lightly.

“Jas…I love you.” I said guiltily. “I know.” He leaned forward and kissed on my forehead.